I fell for you!!

 Just wanted to share...

I fell for you, because of what you were, are and will be. I fell for the whole of you.

I gave you the key to myself.

I gave you the steering of my car.

I gave you the right to control me.

I gave you my myself, without even knowing if you wanted it or not.

My mistake was not to know your wishes.

My mistake was not to know what you really wanted.

My mistake was to assume everything as you wanted.

My mistake was that I fell for you?

Whatever it may be, I don't regret it.

Whatever it may be, I will always think of your betterment.

Whatever it may be, it was surely an experience of life.

Whatever it may be, I will never be able to hate you, ever.

What is friendship?

Is it giving control of your life to the other half?

Is it thinking about them in every moment of your life?

Is it that you can never forget the other half?

Or is it just a feeling that fades away with time?

For me,

Friendship is caring. 

Friendship is becoming.

Friendship is finding.

Friendship just happens.

It can never be forced.

But,

will it ever fade away?

Will it ever erase from the heart?

Will it ever become an unknown?

Will it ever occur again?

The culprit, mind, 

Is laughing at me like I am the biggest fool.

It tells me, it's simple, move on,

Yet I couldn't.

It tells me, it's simple, forget you,

Yet I couldn't.

It tells me, it's simple, just kill you,

Yet, I couldn't.

It tells me, it's simple, either you or me,

Yet, I couldn't.

Even though I know that it is ideal for me to move on.

Even though I know that it is ideal for me to forget you.

Even though I know that it is ideal for me to kill you from my mind.

Even though I know that it is ideal for me to choose me.

But,

fortunately, I know that you are sad,

fortunately, I know that you are lonely,

fortunately, I know that you need strong support,

fortunately, I know that you need someone who could make you feel alive again.

That makes my ideal decisions a joke.

That makes my mind think again if what I will do will be good or not.

That makes my heart beats again with a reason.

That makes my whole me, just worry about you.

I lost myself in the process of becoming friend with you.

I lost myself in the process of expecting equal love from you.

I lost myself in the process of making our different worlds, one.

I lost myself in the process of improving myself for you.

And the problem begins,

I think we are one, yet you may think differently.

I think we can help each other, yet you may differ.

I think we can tackle all the problems together, yet you may differ.

I think we can support each other, yet I have no idea what you think.

Just know,

I trust you.

I believe you.

I like your company

But hey, we can't get a happy ending you know.

You have self-doubts that stop you from moving ahead.

I have a lack of confidence that stops me from growing myself.

You have various insecurities that you want to overcome.

And I have this insecurity that you will leave me for good.

But there is nothing we can do about it, 

Untill we overcome,

our self-doubts,

our lack of confidence,

our insecurties, and our fears.

World is a beautiful place,

Why not explore it together?

Life is so wonderful,

Why not live it together?